The best words come from your heart they say, and right now my heart could talk a mile a minute . I just don't understand how and where we went wrong . I gave you everything in me, everything of me, and for me to be treated like nothing, hurts . I may have a smile, I may laugh, but I'm only covering up for the pain you caused . You've put so much harm on my heart, that you made it impossible for me to want to even love someone else . You took soo much from me that you can't give back and it hurts . It really hurts . I don't understand how you can break my heart so bad, and sleep so good at night . I can't even tell you or anybody how I feel, because I don't even know how I feel . I'm not sure how I should feel . How do you deal with a trauma such as this ? I've never experienced a heartbreak so hurtful that I couldn't even bring myself tears, and I know I'ma emotional person . I can't cry . I'm not myself anymore . I'm out of my element .
I just can't wait to get away from here and start off brand new . I can't wait to get away from you, I don't want to have anything else to do with you . I don't ever want to see ya face again, and if I ever did, the visions of me killing you will come back into play . I really despise your being . I really hate your existence in my life . I hate that you outta all, I allowed for you to hurt me like you have . Then you continue with the lies, deceit, betrayal, and shit talking . It's crazy how months ago, you meant the world to me . :) smh, I used to be so depressed whenever I was with you, but I just loved to be around you . I just loved to have that title . I really thought that I held your heart . I really believed that I was the only one, your number one . I really believed that you did love me somewhere along the line . I really did . Well, I really hoped .
