home trips && disappointments .

, I came back home for the weekend or whatever . to be honest, I ain't been having fun . I just been chillan at the house . to think that someone thass been blowing me since I left would of come to see me is a under statement . for 15-20 minutes, I saw him . we laughed, we hugged, and I was just so fucking happy . damn, I really love this boy && I hate how much . ( sighs ] he's such a disappointment sometimes && most times he really makes me feel worthless, and so fucking low . like I'm just someone that he likes to keep around for comfort . I'm tired of feeling misused and like shit . I'm not even horny anymore, but if I don't hear from him tonight, he don't need to text me anymore . I am sooo tired man . ohmygod, I am =//// .