be like me ? chileeee, you couldn't take two steps in my shoes , because half the time I can't even . I've dealt with so much shit in my past, that I can't even imagine how I would be if none of it wouldn't have happened . life
can be crazy && it can throw its battles at you, and you gotta be strong .
you gotta hold on && fight the shit like a man would . strong ? people consider me to be more than strong . I fight battles that aren't even mines, I make my own battles most of the time . and even though that's not right, I can't help but to blame my past . I am mean . and I can be evil . I am disrespectful . and
I can be reckless . but I feel as if my heart is missing . I know it's missing . it's lost && I'm gonna continue to bash the next motherfucker until my heart comes back to me . I had a heart, so long ago . I really had one, it just stepped off too far && I lost sight of it . so no , you don't wanna end up like me . I curse all the time, and when I argue I get loud only to get my point across . when I'm hurt, I hurt people . rather physically or verbally, someone else is getting hurt too . I don't like my ways sometimes, but it is what it is . once I find that someone who's found my heart , maybe things will be different . but until then, I'll just be another heartless black girl .
&& that's just half of how I feel . you humiliated me . you made me feel so low . so dirty . so nasty . and you , you were out doing the same thing and you lied . you lied about it all, and I just don't know why . you can not hurt me any worse than what you've already done , you can't . I despise liars, I feel as if I keep it 100 with you, you can keep it 200 with me, ya know ? I don't see why that shit can't fly with you . your past actions don't hurt me as much as the lies you tell to cover them ..........
&& when you're done talking you fucked Stasia . prolly fucked Liyah . maybe even Jacherica . prolly the Jasmine bii . got neck by the Isha bii . WTF KNOWS WITH YOU LOU ?! && all I ever wanted for you to do was find my heart . you couldn't seem to do that, you found my panties , but ya just couldn't seem to find my heart . #hmmph !
