; sex ? what about it ? nothing to even get too hype about because with this day in age, you'll never find someone who deserves it . march 16th, late that night early in the wee hours of the morning, I think I might've made the biggest mistake in all my eighteen years of living . never was I stupid to open up to every nigga, but man I loved this guy && I know he loved me then, I swear to God he did . I just don't know what happened, but I gave him what was so unique about me ; what made me so different from everyone else . && he just so easily set me aside, like we haven't been at it for 8 months already . call me crazy, idgaf yoo, because he drove me to being this way . I wouldn't wish this fucking heartbreak on my worst enemy, not even him . It hurts to know that all this time was wasted, and I knew this, but I let him get into my head and think otherwise . I knew it, but I just loved him too much to believe he'd actually treat me like this .
thanks to you, I feel used . I feel unworthy . I feel disgusted . I feel stupid . eight months and you wanna treat me like this, nigga really ? I just don't understand why you're acting like this, because you're only making me colder than I ever was . after everything I've been through, you gone do me like this . sad, karma is a bitch though . and I can not wait until she meets ya black axx . until then, I have to deal . I have to change my life around, because everything with my life involved you && was critiqued to fit you . so with that being said, take my heed of a warning . it's not worth it, if he's not the one . might as well lose the shit to a complete stranger and then you'd feel much better than losing it to someone you love, only for them to break you afterwards .
it's 2011 && if the world ends next year, then I mean it is what it is . I can say I lived my life, I've had my share of mistakes, learned from alot, && lived it to the fullest . I'm not gonna regret this any longer, because it was gonna happen at one point, and like I said I wanted it once upon a time, so fuck it . I don't give a fuck WHO reads this, it is MY blogg haha . life goes on and niggas come and go like buses (:, wrap it up, think about it, make sure you're ready, make sure he's the right partner, && make sure you're sure . - sincerely the girl who wasn't so sure about him .
