so it's been 5 days . 5 long, restless, crazy ass days . 5 long, restless, crazy ass nights that I've gone through without talking to Lou . can't believe it huh ? well I mean it is what it is . guess we're done for good, so hey what can I do . it was good while it lasted, nigga drove me to insanity . still sitting here too . I should of posted somethxng last night, had the craziest experience ever . eyes bloodshot red, snot everywhere, chest heaving and hurting, throat sore, and hot as fuck . yeah I cried . but not mainly over this . I cried because of the past . some thxngs I just wish I never would of done . I regret some of the thxngs like hell, but it's the past so I shall leave it there . but I can't . seems like I'll forever be stuck there .
[ shakes head ) Please Don't Leave Me - Pink is like the story of my life right now lol . I would tell someone that, but it wouldn't even make a difference . Me doing what I have to do doesn't seem to phase him none . he's pretending to be hurt, but he hasn't tried anything to stop it . or me . kinda shxt is that ? I'm not mad at you over no fucking facebook status either, stop listening to other people who dk wtf they're talking about . I'm not gone say that I wasn't upset by it, but mad ? psshh nah . if you feel that you can trust ya boys more than you can trust me then thass ya problem, not even mine . I want us to work . I really do, not even gone lie and say that I don't . I can't breathe right now for a reason . I just want you to fight for us like you told me you would . I don't want to leave, but why aren't you trying to stop me ? thass all I ever wanted . thass all . #fightingforlove . if you can't do that, there was no love here .
it's day 5 . && it's getting harder and harder everyday w.out you , but I am maintaining . I can live without you, I just have to start believing so .
